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I get it i do...

Everyone has there own problems and you do too
Interest fades and gives way to the mountain dew?
Like the saying goes...
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
Familiarity breeds contempt...

I feel as thou our roles are reversed
A love song unwritten in doubt a heart submersed

I can be strong for others why cant i be strong for myself
You have no idea how much your words mean even in a passing joke
You

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What a fool you could never compete
If all you do is lie and cheat
I feel sorry for you i really do
Ranked so high yet how many people even view
Its not about the fame
Its not even about you
Its about what we share, voice and the things we do

How important can this be?
Take off that mask and maybe you'll see...
Its not always about being the best
Its about writing whats true being different from all the rest
Acceptance is

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haha its my fault in the end
its not other people i hurt myself
ofcourse no one means what they say haha why would they
its times like this that i need to be punished lol for letting myself think over and over that things are real i build myself up just to crumble haha, its true what they say those that make you feel they best can also make you feel your worst, how do i feel well sad..... its a number of things really just one after the other haha it kinda just builds up and makes ...

It felt like you abandoned me and that's exactly what you did
Even thou i know deep down...

Your trying to escape problems of your own
But when you left i felt empty
I cried.
I felt so alone...

You didn't even let me say goodbye
You just vanished without a trace in the blink of an eye
I had so much left to say...
But you never gave me the chance

It hurt and i felt so angry it wasn't fair you had

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Im scared...
Im scared of you of what you think
Of what you say, what you want
What you don't...

I wont ever tell you first i wont even tell you second
Im a coward i know but that's how Ive survived

You will never know and that's okay
It will hound my mind but eventually one day
Ill forget, you'll forget me
And that's just how it will be

Your answer terrifies me
Its my greatest fear
I feel so paper thin

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I hate it all go burn in the fires
a cesspit of shadow of devils and liars

Friends... haha what friends?
its easy to say things when i need them not
but when im down and depressed you dont say alot
its all pretend you use me to make you feel better
but return the favour? no i got to write a letter

but here im just venting i dont even care
whether your gone or whether your here

What hurts from you is you dont even try

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Im happy Im bliss but its all just pretend
There will be nothing ill miss
Lets put on our masks an go to the ball
Lets dance lets play lets hide lets fall
Into the warp of shadow and lies
No one will notices when the realness dies
Perfection is fake but that's what you want to see
So that's what ill pretend to be
Ill hide my emotions and cover the real me

Lets go back... to before the wall crumbled
Lets go back... to before

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Sometimes...
I want so much to give up

I fall and get up so many times
Is it really that bad if i don't stand again
Cant i just sit here and hide my tears in the rain?
I don't want to try anymore i cant stand the pain

It washes over me like the rising sun
It hurts so much it shreds my very being
Piece by piece my death foreseeing

I wish i could quell the hope within my box
Discard my heart and cover it in locks

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Life is like a dream so confusing, so consuming , a nightmare full of blissful moments

Why am i confused?
Lost in this dream
Lost in a nightmare of bliss and despair
Fear is my savior
The darkness withing my heart
Every time i wake
My heart my soul
Is so easy to break
Please tread carefully....

Is this our charade?
Our waltz
Our masquerade
Please let it last...

I gave you three wishes

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So imma repost my poems now for those of you who dont know meh hai i write crap xD

mostleh poems i write occassionly dribble complaining about my blissfully hellish adventure of a life xD lolies but anyway welcome to meh blog xD

Introduction to My New Wonderland ++

I never took it seriously but now i think i will
You made an impact on me in the last few days...
I don't know what it is but im determined to see it thru
Did i see ...