I hate myself.

Zero Xaerus · 10-03-2006, 08:25 PM

Welp, Just here to say that I broke up with my girlfriend.

She was my first and it lasted for 6 months.

I feel pretty shaken up but I guess I knew it had to end.

I know that I had pretty rough time with her and I really can't blame her.

I just feel so stupid to neglect her and Argh . .

You get the picture, Now you can say I'm a lousy person when it comes to relationships.

I guess the computer is my only love in life. .

T.T This feeling so sadness . .

I wish I could redo the whole thing over . .

Kataklysm · 10-03-2006, 08:34 PM

Ha...

Dude it was your first real relationship.... shit happens....you're not meant to know everything when you pop out of the womb, you learn as you go. People make mistakes.

Take note of this and dont ever let it happen again.

And, stop being a pussy.

Candescence. · 10-03-2006, 08:35 PM

Sorry to hear that.
You never really get over your 1st true love, but it will get easier for you as time passes on, you may not think it now, but you will.
When you say you "neglected her", do you mean in breaking up terms?

Lezbayne · 10-03-2006, 08:38 PM

;;
Zero, I luff you. ;;
ull b ok
jus dun giv up, k? k

Val Venis · 10-03-2006, 08:39 PM

if you neglected her for your computer then maybe you need to re-think some things in your life.
Anywho 1st relationships rarely stay together too long and as long as you had a good 6 months that's all that matters!

Zero Xaerus · 10-03-2006, 08:39 PM

Thanks, I needed that.

Except the ***** thing.

I hate it because it reflects me you know?

I mean what did I do wrong?

Am I not smart?

Am I not funny?

Am I not good looking?

Am I not rich?

I hate it because It makes me feel unwanted and isolated.

But I guess people have their flaws.

It's times like this when you need a person to talk to and the person I needed to talk to the most just left me.

"IRISH" RUFUS MURPHY · 10-03-2006, 08:40 PM

-hugs-

just remember, there is no mistakes in life except for the things you didn't learn from.

I ain't too great with relationships either, or maybe I am being too hard on myself, but the one thing I keep trying to do is learn and move on and use what I know for the future. I can honestly say I have learned from everything I been through and done.

I remember the first girlfriend I ever had. And it lasted off and on for almost 2 years, because I was just happy to have someone, despite all the times she cheated on me, and every time being stupid enough to take her back. I didn' tlove myself then, and it took me many years to feel ok in my own skin.

I know losing your first love is hard...but take it from me, whose lost alot of people, things and loves in my life...time is a healer and as it all moves along, the less and less it will bother you. Its like something my dad told me, cus I asked him how he managed to not break down in Vietnam:

"You see a little girl all blown to pieces and you get down on your knees and bawl your eyes out and yell 'I cant go on!'...then you see a dozen children no more than fifty feet away burned alive and you say 'Omg, this is awful' and shed a few tears...then a hundred yards away you see mothers and children dead, a hundred in all, and you say 'Thats terrible!' but you walk on...then you see a school burned to the ground and children and teachers burned to the bone...and you no longer notice."

What my dad told me was, there will be worse things to come on down the line in your life than what you're feeling now...and in time, you get over it and get stronger and less hurt to the things that hurt you.

you'll be fine. we all phuck up sometime.

Val Venis · 10-03-2006, 08:42 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Zero Xaerus

It's times like this when you need a person to talk to and the person I needed to talk to the most just left me.

do you break up with her or vice versa?

Candescence. · 10-03-2006, 08:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Zero Xaerus

Thanks, I needed that.

Except the ***** thing.

I hate it because it reflects me you know?

I mean what did I do wrong?

Am I not smart?

Am I not funny?

Am I not good looking?

Am I not rich?

I hate it because It makes me feel unwanted and isolated.

But I guess people have their flaws.

It's times like this when you need a person to talk to and the person I needed to talk to the most just left me.

Did you neglect her for the computer?

Kataklysm · 10-03-2006, 08:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Zero Xaerus

Thanks, I needed that.

Except the ***** thing.

I hate it because it reflects me you know?

I mean what did I do wrong?

Am I not smart?

Am I not funny?

Am I not good looking?

Am I not rich?

I hate it because It makes me feel unwanted and isolated.

But I guess people have their flaws.

It's times like this when you need a person to talk to and the person I needed to talk to the most just left me.

WTF?

You said YOU NEGLECTED HER

As in you werent there for her, you werent there when she needed you, when she needed a shoulder to lean on it sure as fuck wasnt you. Its YOUR fault. Not one of your "flaws"...

Buck up, get over it, and do better....